Finances are a bit tight as I’m on maternity leave and making 2/3 of what I normally do, and have been since September due to pregnancy complications and honestly I just feel so guilty that I need to spent money on myself.

It feels like every time we get ahead the money gets spent on something else (usually fiancé or our son or the dogs) and it’s left me with literally nothing that fits or looks decent with the exception of 1 pair of jeans and 1 pair of leggings. Everything else falls down and the only shirts I have are nursing tank tops and cardigans and I own 1 dress. Also, the dogs have chewed my shoes so I need new ones but I can’t bring myself to spent that money.

So I don’t even want to go out because I don’t want people to see me and judge me especially since I live in Toronto, everyone seems so damn glamorous.

I just feel really alone and really crappy about myself.

The last time I did something (that requires money) for myself was getting my hair done back at 36 weeks pregnant. That was literally 6 months ago.

I’m sure I’m being overly emotional and dramatic but we were invited to a wedding - no kids allowed so my fiancé is going (got his hair done, had to get a white dress shirt and tie and a gift) and I’m left behind with our son.