I feel like I’m failing

Why doesn’t anyone tell you how awful the first trimester is? How you’re going to be nauseous every second of every day and nothing will bring you relief? How exhausted your going to be within 10 minutes of daily life? How badly you want to cry because you’re so desperate to feel human again...

I always told myself I wasn’t going to be a “bad” pregnant woman. I was going to be positive, not complain, and embrace every symptom. I know there are so many woman out there who would die to be feeling these symptoms but will never have the opportunity to. This makes me feel so selfish. I feel like I can’t function properly right now. I’m 9w+5d with my first child. I don’t feel like doing anything, talking to anyone, or eating anything. I feel like I’m failing this child already.