I have been suffering for anxiety attacks when me and my boyfriend of 2 years had a very big argument which resulted in us almost breaking up , he is my soulmate and I love him and the idea of almost losing him made me very anxious , however I’ve been feeling really insecure and upset about his sexual history and it makes me feel not special even though they didn’t mean anything I still feel like shit when I imagine him having sex with other women , one of them goes to my college and I saw her and immediately went to the toilet and started crying and had my first anxiety attack , my boyfriend is the love of my life and everything about him is perfect , I just wish I was the first women in his life , I’ve only even had sex with 1 other boy when I was 13 and it hurt and I couldn’t feel anything but I know that when he did have sex it was pleasurable and exciting for him and it makes me. Upset. I know this sounds stupid but every time he isn’t really in the mood for sex it makes me feel like they where better than me and that sex with me isn’t as exciting, please be positive