Admitting my toxicness

I’m 15, going to be 16 in July, and I’m aware that I’m toxic to my boyfriend. Before anyone attacks me, I’m looking for help. I don’t want to be this way and he really doesn’t deserve it. We see each other almost every day and yesterday we couldn’t and I got really mad. I know it’s not healthy to see each other every day, but I didn’t go to band so we were talking about it all day but something came up on my end. (I do online school so I only go one hour a day) I also have a problem with tickling, poking, prodding, and light smacking his arms. It seems as I can’t control myself and I really don’t want to lose him. I have to put so much extra effort in to not messing with him. I read online it’s a way to cope with anxiety too so that may be why? I really need help guys! I already go to counseling once every two weeks, should I go every week? I’m lost.

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