So my daughter will be 5 months on the 9th.. and i cant help but feel like im doing everything wrong all the time. im a first time mom and i understand that because i am a first time mom i shouldn’t be so hard on myself because im still learning but i always feel like shit. especially when i get mad or frustrated at her.. i try not to because i know its not her fault and its not fair to her but when shes up all night its hard. but EVERYTIME i look at her i burst into tears because i feel like a shitty mom and a shitty person. im only 19 and i work a full time job at a bank so i dont really get to see her, and when i do i take full advantage of it.. its just at night where i get frustrated.. i HATE this feeling.. and i cant talk to anyone about it because when i do all they tell me is im still learning and its normal but this feeling i have is not normal.. like my baby deserves a better mom. i just dont know what to do. i just want to cry all the time honestly. 😔

this is my beautiful babygirl Luna. 💗