Is there something wrong with me???

I gotta vent!!!! Currently looking for a marriage counselor to work on our marriage. I have trust issues and i have doubts about my husband cheating and poasibly fathered a child with an ex-coworker. His RESPONSE: YOU NEED HELP, I DONT KNOW HOW LONG I CAN TAKE THIS BUT U NEED MENTAL HEALTH. I THOUGHT WE WAS DOING THIS FOR BOTH OF US. YESTERDAY HE SPIT IN MY FACE! I CANT HAVE A CONVERSATION WITH HIM TO ASK BECAUSE HE HAS EITHER A SMIRK OR A SMILE ON HIS FACE WHEN I QUESTION HIM ABOUT CHEATING!!

IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH HAVING DOUBTS? SHOULD THIS BE ABOUT US OR JUST ME? I THOUGHT THIS WAS TO IMPROVE OUR MARRIAGE NOT BASH ME!??

Vent over!!!