Anyone else get really anxious before every appointment??

i had a miscarriage in august and i’m super terrified it’s going to happen again. My first ultrasound at 5 wk 5 days I was able to see the sac & yolk sac.

Friday I go in again for my 7 week 1 day ultrasound and i’m a nervous wreck. I haven’t had any miscarriage “signs” but it still haunts me. i’m so scared I will get gold again that my baby is not alive. 😭😭😭

Also, after my first appointment i told my mother in law she could come to this next appointment, but now i’m scared to have her there just in case we get bad news... any on advice on how I should disinvite her? I feel awful doing it... but i’m so scared for her to witness something being wrong.