Not sure what to think

So about a week or two I posted some hpt because I want sure so here the month of may is practically over and I still have not had af was suppose to come on the 20th but never did even now still nothing. Should I just wait to see what next month brings I mean I have a the symptoms of pregnacy but theses tests hate me im afraid to go to my doc because they look at me as I am mental or something and say it is all in my head with the pink dye I kinda see something and the blue dye I see a think one I feel as if I'm losing hope