PMS Symptoms are different every month!

Period is due in 1-3 days sometime and I totally feel like my period is going to start. Lower back pain and bloating and mild cramping all started today. It’s hard to not feel like it’s not going to happen, especially when EVERY month, my PMS symptoms are different. The past 3-4 months, my boobs have hurt a week before period and this month, they don’t hurt at all, that is my only hope that maybe I am pregnant. The cramping before my period is not normal for me, I usually don’t cramp until my second day in. Ugh, feeling sad and want to give up. 😔 I know I’m not out until AF comes, but I just can’t help to think that AF will be here when that’s how my body feels.