The agonising anxiety inducing waiting....

Li

I had an ectopic pregnancy at the end of January. It ruptured and I had to have my right tube removed. We waited the advised 2 cycles before trying again. My last period was on 9 April. Positive pregnancy test on 24 May. Had my early scan today and the nurse couldn’t find anything. She has called it a pregnancy of unknown location. She has taken my bloods and I am to go back on Saturday for more bloods to check hcg levels are rising. I am terrified but a small part of me still hopes it is just too soon. I just feel I need to write this down as we haven’t told anyone else and I’m looking for a bit of support. I feel cursed. Please don’t let this be in my only remaining tube. So far I have had no pain or bleeding and I do feel pregnant. Sometimes you just wonder what is Mother Nature doing to me? Thanks for reading x