I am really struggling. It’s been about 5 weeks since my miscarriage and I’m having a really hard time today. I have yet to get my period, and I feel like my body just hates me and I am hating myself. My husband and I have been fighting a lot more since the miscarriage mainly because we are on two separate pages. The day that I had my D&C, my husband thought he would go celebrate that he just got promoted. (We work for the same place, and our boss reached out to say his condolences and then also to advise my husband he was being promoted.) So there I am.. recovering from this horrific time just wanting to cuddle and be loved.. and he goes to his sisters house and hangs out with his brother in law and then spends the night so he doesn’t drink and drive home. It was over an hour away so I couldn’t go pick him up.. he also left me home with our 3 year old son. He showed barely any understanding as to why I was so mad and says that I’m always mad when he goes and hangs out with his brother in law..

Now today we just got into a huge fight, and he said that he never wants to have another child because of the fact that I can’t move on and it affects my mental health. I’m so destroyed by his comment inside and how someone who’s supposed to love you could say something so hurtful.

I’m happy he got his promotion btw, just kinda upset that it took priority in his mind instead of my well-being. And of course, I’m just being selfish..

My employer did say there’s programs that I could get into for assistance with this.. but I don’t want them to look at me different..