Angry Rant 😡

Yesterday I went to a friends child's Preschool Graduation. They all lined up in their little cap and gowns all smiling and acting all happy... The Preschool showed a small slideshow of a baby picture & a current picture of the children and they have al l grown so much..

And I got so... upset.. and angry. I wanted to get up and walk away. I want to go to my car and cry and scream. My body is SCREAMING for a baby. I want a baby and I feel like I want a baby for all the selfish reasons. I want someone to love unconditionally, I want someone to be able to pass all my knowledge onto, I want to be able to watch someone grow and develop...

But dang. I don't understand my body. I know I'm not it a good enough spot to try for a baby with my boyfriend. We've talked about kids (in depth) and we both want children! But we dont have a big enough house, we need a better car, and we have nothing for a baby. No clothes or toys or diapers or anything else that a baby would need.

But I'm so angry that I'm not pregnant and I just can't handle it.

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Ne

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How is that selfish hun? The feeling of wanting a baby is completely natural for a woman. That’s what we were created for, to bring life into the world, and it’s the biggest superpower. however getting upset and angry over it won’t do you any good. How old are you if you don’t mind me asking? If you feel like you both want a child, maybe you should just go ahead and try, because waiting to have all the ducks in a row can take years. And especially if you have endo, you don’t always know how long it will take. but also, try to keep in mind that having a child will completely change your life. You won’t be able to treat yourself the same anymore, spontaneously pick up and go somewhere, many things become more difficult. So it’s a good idea to enjoy the season in life you are in now, before it’s no longer an option.

Ne

Neska • Jul 5, 2019
You’re still very young, you have so much time! You’ll have all the babies you’ll want.

Ca

Caitlin • Jul 5, 2019
I'm 22, I'll be 23 in September, and my boyfriend is 25. Since this post we have upgraded our car and we are looking to buy a home and get out of our rental. Hopefully within the year things will be in a better place for us 💕