Salaam sisters, i have no where else to go but here. My family does not know what has been happening and I am ashamed to confide in them as i spent so long convincing them to let me marry him as they as their reservations. First a little back story - we have been in love for 9 years and married for 2.5 years. We have just had a baby girl (our first) who is 4 months old. We would argue before as normal couples do alot however since we had the baby, my husband has become distanced from me. We share no marital intimacy anymore, we barely talk as it results in arguements and if i ask him to help with the baby it depends on his mood. Sometimes hes happy to, sometimes he argues with me about it. We both planned this baby before having her. He works and comes home and spends most of his time upstairs listening to music or watching football. He comes to assist me in bathing her, maybe does a feed and then goes again. I have tried to explain that i need his help and support more as im suffering from ppd but he gets annoyed at me further. Shortly after we had the baby he became estranged from his family. His mum decided after 6 years of knowing me and giving her approval to her son that she didnt like me anymore (i never was rude or done anything to encourage her hatred) i have encouraged him to reconcile with his mum but he refuses. He has become very distant from me and the baby, he barely compliments me, doesnt notice when i try something new with myself, easily gets angry at me, bangs doors and curses as hes walking away. Weve both spoken about this and he blames me i blame him etc etc but have agreed that we are definately going through a bad phase. Today i woke him up half hour before his alarm was due to go off as i had been up with the baby since 5am and needed a short bathroom break and also to go and make her milk. I woke him up early as previously he had said to me not to ask him to help when his alarm goes off because hes alrdy rushing for work so i should wake him up earlier so he doesnt get late. So i woke him up 8.10 instead of his 8.30 alarm meaning i had already been up for over 3 hours with her crying. He began cursing at me telling me im selfish for not letting him sleep and banging doors around the house again. He left the house with me in tears as i was so tired and shocked. I messaged him when he got to work and he said he doesnt want to talk to me but that he also doesnt want to spend this eid with me and my family and would rather stay home alone (it was agreed from the start that we would always spend eids with my family as his family isnt muslim but he is). I cant stand the tension in the house anymore. No matter how i approach him to try to sort this out he gets angry and begins to accuse me of not being a good wife. He manipulates anything i say to suit him. I am constantly upset, tired and hurt. He was never like this he was always so caring and loving. Im contemplating divorce as its becoming harder and harder to live with.

Any advice sisters? Am i right in wanting to leave? I need to put my girl first and this tension isnt nice for her.

Thanks for reading my veryyyy longg post x