Am I sounding selfish?

So before getting pregnant I was already struggling with anxiety, in my first appointment I was told that my anxiety was going to get worse which like everything I didn’t put too much mind because not every pregnancy is the same. So anyways, my anxiety did get worse, I can literally have anxiety from being alone in my room, it’s so different & difficult, nothing like I’ve experienced & I’ve been struggling with anxiety for like 8 years already. I’m 30 weeks & it’s still there, I’m having a hard time deciding if I want a baby shower... I basically already have everything, I’m missing the main stuff like diapers, wipes & little extra stuff I’ll like to get but the main stuff I already got. The reason I’m having my doubts about the baby shower is because of my anxiety, like I’m afraid to be all uncomfortable when it’s all about me basically that day, or to be having panic attacks because they’re hard to control now. I just don’t know if I’ll come off selfish to my SO or my in laws because is my first pregnancy but in my point of view I don’t like putting myself in positions where I’ll be uncomfortable...