I hate testing now

Mads • Boy mom • TTC after loss • 25 • Dog Mom • Texas

After 16 months ttc I hate testing. I got tired of seeing negatives. I told myself I wouldn’t test until June since my period was late. It’s now June and I can’t seem to make myself go buy a test. I have been suffering from morning & night sickness as well as sensitivity to smells. But I have also been cramping like I’m going to start my period for the past week. I just wish I could work up the courage to test 😭