Long Distance Relationship

My boyfriend and I have been long distance for about 10 months now, I’m in NC and he is in NM, 1,700 miles apart.

I am so in love with this man, I come to tears just thinking about how much love I have for him. We have been able to see each other every 2/3 months and it’s been so hard. Every time I have to say goodbye I’m in tears and I’m terrified of the distance about to be between us again.

I was just in NM visiting him, I got back this past Thursday. It’s hard for me because even though he will say he misses me back, it doesn’t feel that way. When he says he loves me.. I dont feel that he does the way I do.

Part of me struggles with the fact that he doesn’t share his emotions the way that I do and I know that is just part of him being a guy.. but I wish he could give me something. I feel like it’s so hard for me to be apart but it’s not for him. It’s hard to explain, but I start to question everything.

Anyone else in or have been in a long distance relationship and experience this, or what what your experience? I’d love to hear.