CRPS and TTC and venting

My hubs and I have decided to try to get pregnant with our own child since 2017 we both have children from previous relationships. Since 5/2018 I have been diagnosed with CRPS (complex regional pain syndrome) basically a virus attacked a nerve in my elbow and I’ve been living with excruciating pain all day everyday, I’m on a couple pain meds to deal with the pain. It’s difficult for doctors to examine my arm due to the extreme sensitivity to it (can’t be touched)

I have gone through several treatments-playing the insurance game because they won’t approve surgery unless all other treatments are tried and proven not to work (which none have work-pt, nerve injections and even pain meds are starting to not work since in pain hours after meds are taken).

I have a 10 degree movement in my arm. I can’t do much on my own, cutting my food and needing a certain fork because all other forks are too heavy for me to hold, doing just about all everyday things-I can only was about 5 dishes and then I need to stop, even then that’s too much for me to. Luckily my husband, MIL and kids (10, 7, 5 year olds) all help me out. I’ve lost all strength in my arm. I feel so horrible that I can’t do much around the house and if I do it takes forever to do housework, and even then the hubs says he would rather me not do anything. Hell even taking a shower is difficult. I can’t wash my elbow because it’s so sensitive and will hurt so bad.

Last month when I went to see my pain doctor he had said that they are going to go ahead with surgery (of course it needs to be approved by insurance)

I’m so ready to stop taking these pain meds (that have caused me to put on 50 lbs in a over a year) and get to working out. And hopefully being able TTC.

Sorry for the long post I needed to vent as not a lot of people know about my CRPS. I know some people will say “you can do things on your own if you tried” but when you live with a t-Rex 🦖 arm and your in excruciating pain all day everyday and don’t have any strength it difficult to do things with a lot of help. Believe me I try to do things on my own and it’s too painful.

This is my life-living with a pillow between my arm and my body.

Again sorry for the long post I just needed to vent.