I don't feel anything anymore. Nothing helps, people been making it worse. I be who I am and say what I feel which causes fights and apparently I'm mean and weak. I was sad mad before now I just had enough of everything. All I want is one sweet person that consistenly doesn't fight with me, wants to cuddle, be understanding, honest and loyal. Simple and not asking for much. Tired of disappointed let downs from narcissistic heartless bastards. Family is fake, "friends" dont ignore you and make you feel like a lonely outcast in a full room, medicine, therapy, art doesn't even help. When I'm alone I might not be happy but at least I'm content. All alone I will suffer for one nice companion but at least that's the only suffering. Happiness, love, friends, family and society all suck. Depression really isnt a strong enough word nor feeling. Only point of life I see anymore is cuddling my squishables in bed, watch Jacksepticeye/Markiplier and maybe stay in my own imagination.