Mehhh another negative update

So I’ve been early every month for about the last 4 months to maybe 5. Sometimes I’m a day late but I typically show signs that AF is coming. Today i caved and bought a test. Knowing it was going to be negative i took it anyway hoping for a positive. Still out! Have been fighting this fight for 4 years now! And have honestly given up! Im 5 days and either me being sick constantly in may has me screwed up or I’m just broken....thought AF came two days ago! Only freaking small amount of spotting and once today! Im also having thee most uncomfortable pain & feeling in my stomach!! Mehhhh