Sex mostly every day and nothing

Tried to take a more carefree approach in May still ended up using OPKS but wasn’t really stessing about it so much. Trying not to anyway. Ended up having sex most of the month didn’t plan to tho. I’m around 9/10dpo and I keep getting negative tests. According to my different apps my period is either 2 days away or 5/6 days away. But I’m feeling more PMS cramps like im about to start even tho rn they went away. I feel like I had a good chance in May but then I was having toothaches and didn’t really sleep properly for 4 days which was of course right when my TWW started. The lack of sleep and unbearable pain caused me to be emotional and stressed and I think that messed up my chances of implantation. I couldn’t even do anything about the pain bc I didn’t want to take medicine that could hurt a baby or prevent implantation just in case. Even now where chances are I’m not pregnant I stopped taking my hydrocodone after two pills because I can’t take it in good conscience even tho it helped the pain tremendously. I’ve been crying hard off and on the past couple days bc I’m just so heart broken even tho I try not to just in case there is some off chance I am pregnant. I just feel so depressed man. Maybe I’m just not meant to be a mother.