Surprise babyshower, I feel sad.

So I haven't been very hormonal emotional so far, but today is the day. I had a surprise baby shower today, super sweet of the girls, but there weren't a lot of people and the baby shower had nothing to do with me and the baby. We just sat around and talked like any other day and at the end I received a basket with some gifts, after an hour and a half people started leaving. Also I had to pickup my kids from school at noon, they arranged for other kids ofthe group from that same school to be picked up but Boone thought about my kids so eventually I had to pick them up late and felt horrible about that. A lot of girls didn't show up and didn't bother to even send or sign the card either. I am a person who is always there for everyone, 24/7 if you need me I'll be there. I just wished I felt as loved and supported by others too and I don't feel that way at all. I just feel so sad today.