Random Vent

The other day I told my mom that I was pregnant. She was so mad at me, she was like “you can’t even take of yourself, how are you going to take care of a child” and I’m like it’s my child, I’ll find a way. So I’ve constantly looking for jobs and going on interviews, just to not get them and today i finally broke down. I feel like I’m failing my child already! I feel so defeated and like my mom was right. How am I supposed to take care of my baby, if I can’t even provide for us? I’ll be 9 weeks tomorrow so I’m still pretty early but still...it hurts. So many people who have jobs and a well put together life are ttc and here I am, blessed with a baby, and trying to figure out how/why.

Sorry for this rant, I just needed to get that off my chest.