PPD?...

This might be all over the place..I’m not good with emotions but here goes..

Currently 3 1/2 months postpartum. About every day Im upset and crying. I feel like I’m not pretty anymore. Before pregnancy i was confident , and at a happy weight. I’m one of those girls that would always have my hair , and nails done, etc , and kept myself “pretty “. I haven’t been able to do such things in over a year, I just feel fat and gross now. I don’t like to go out, wearing makeup just makes me feel stupid now because i still feel ugly. My bf doesn’t want me to work because he doesn’t trust anyone to watch our baby and rather i manage the income and stay at home. So...im broke., i tell him all the time I don’t feel pretty anymore, he usually just says he doesn’t know what to tell me, that he thinks im pretty. He gets his haircut often and buys himself clothes, but doesn’t do the same for me..its not his job but if my gf is telling me she doesn’t feel pretty, and stuff, id be like okay baby, lets go out and get your hair done, etc so you can feel beautiful again or something I’m also losing my hair suddenly, too which doesn’t help im literally balding on the sides of my head..i talked to my bf about possible ppd and he thinks ive just always been this way, when i mention my hair falling out he says everyone’s hair does that... i feel he doesn’t take my feelings very seriously

Not to mention, I never went to my postpartum checkup so idunno...