I am going to be honest bc this is anonymous..... I got my bfp 2 days ago. I am spotting brown.. I have had 2 early miscarriages this year and have never been able to see that flickering of a heartbeat (blighted ovum and chemical)

I’ve had test done and everything is fine... I’m also on progesterone and baby aspirin for my own sanity...... the thing is, I haven’t told anyone about this pregnancy but my doctor... not even my husband knows......now here I am, spotting brown, and internally going through hell... all by myself.

I don’t know what to do anymore.... I am too embarrassed/ashamed to tell anyone because I feel like I can’t do the one thing I was “made” to do. I don’t want my husband to feel like we will never have children. I don’t want to tell him I’m pregnant just to tell him I’ve miscarried again.

I just turned 28 and all these years I’ve eaten healthy, lifted weights, done cardio, stayed at a healthy BMI, and now I can’t keep a pregnancy.

I get pregnant so quickly.... I just don’t understand.

Does anyone have any words of encouragement?? I am so lost.