I have one amazing son who is 5 now and I’d love to have at least one more. I love my little guy but my husband and I grew up with siblings so I’d love to give that to my son too. But I’m starting to give up hope.

Back in October 2017 I had surgery to removal precancerous cells on my cervix from severe cervical dysplasia. My doctors told me that because of the shape of my cervical opening being wider than some ladies he had to take those cells that we bad and go wider.

And even though he said that we would have no problem conceiving but it’s a possibility we could have issues carrying a child. And that I’d just have to be looked after carefully. Which is fine. But I feel he let my hopes get up too high. And that my surgery is causing me to not be able to get pregnant.

We have been not really “trying” but we aren’t preventing for a little over a year now and nothing. I was tracking my cycle and it was stressing me out so turned off the notifications and said whatever happens will happen. Which I still believe but I’m getting sad when I see my friends or family pregnant or when they ask when we are having another. And I’ve also thought about taking some otc fertility pills (upspring fertility) but wasn’t sure how they would effect anything. But maybe we aren’t meant to have another one.

Sorry for the long post. I had to get it off my chest.