Platonic or no?

My best friend and I have know each other since we were 8, we’re now 13. We’re really close-intimate, not just mentally. We always cuddle and we’ve shared the bed even. Weird thing is though, I CANNOT like her. Even though we like all of the same stuff, we’re so close dating would be awkward (we’re so close we practically are dating) and also: she’s straight as a toothpick. Like I don’t know if this is platonic or if it could be something more. Thank y’all for reading.