SORRY FOR THE TMI

I’ve been feeling like I’ve noticed he’s been pulling away for a few weeks or more, and I just chalked it up to being all in my head. Then this morning he tells me that he masterbated last night. To pornhub. Right next to me. In our bed. While I was sleeping.

I feel like I have to beg him to have sex with me, he’s always “so tired.”

I tried to stay super chill about it.. but all morning I’ve been wanting to bawl my eyes out. Like no shit he’s been pulling away from me and no shit he’s not interested in having sex with ME when there’s allllll these other beautiful women doing shit on camera that I won’t (or physically can’t) do.

A couple weeks ago we got into a HUGE fight and I gave him my wedding ring to hold onto until he got his shit figured out, and he still hasn’t given it back yet.

He tried to randomly once at like a horrible moment, and I said no now isn’t the time.

Idk.. I just feel like I’m losing him. And I’m only 15 weeks pregnant.

But to find out he’s jerkin off to other bitches right next to me as I sleep when he already knows I have self esteem issues, I’m over weight, I’m PREGNANT, and dealing with depression, like good god..