TTC way too long


Trying for 3rd pregnancy. Had twins first in 2015, a miscarriage this February. Month 3 of trying after m/c, month 13 overall. My period is 2 days late and 3 pregnancy tests later, they’re all 🤬 negative. I can’t anymore. I’m emotionally spent. I want my sex life back. I want to not think about this anymore and not worry about when I’m freaking ovulating. But how?! Husband does not get the emotional investment in this. Please don’t tell me some bullshit about a “journey” and how I’ll get my rainbow baby someday. I’m pissed. I’m resentful. I’m beyond frustrated. I want to run away. Ok, that is all.