i don't know how to explain this or how it will come out or what time of assumption you'll make about me or my husband when this is finished.

my husband and i have been married a little over a year and things are good, great, steady?

we are trying to have a baby, this is our seventh month. hes not as into it as i am, which was expected... (bc im crazy and count and try to plan our sex life) we probably on average have sex 5, maybe 6 times a month. that isnt a ton, i know, but were just freaking tired, what can I say?

so around ovulation i am all about it, while he's "okay with it", but obviously not disappointed like i am on a night that were supposed to do it, and dont.

him and i do everything together, but it's much different than the beginning....we were all over each other constantly. ALLLLL the time. i dont think my brain has adjusted to the fact that were older, and more comfortable and used to each other, where as he is. which is good right? he's content and it's all consistent. therefore, it's a problem in my brain and that means I think we as a couple have a problem. has anyone gone through this?

like im freakin 23. shouldnt we be in the honeymoon stage still? thriving for each other and our future? he works so hard for us, dont get me wrong...works incredibly hard and gives me everything I want, so yes, in that sense he absolutely does. maybe I think that since this is what my body is MADE to do, it should have happened. Sometimes I feel like I just keep asking for more. Especially with a baby, shouldnt he want that too? I know he does, but am I overreacting with interpreting his love all time?

He says I'm mad all the time and I dont mean to be...I have nothing to be mad at about.

So, before you say "tell him how you feel", I do. And I think it goes in one ear and out the other.

shit is hard.