I regret it all...

I’ve been with my husband a total of 8 years and the past 3 years I’ve found myself wishing how things could go back to how they used to be, but here lately I’ve thought and realized there hasn’t been much that changed like I thought. It’s honestly been hell all along. 2 years after we met he proposed, we got married. Of course there was drama, his ex caused a lot of it the morning of our wedding day by blowing his phone up telling him not to marry me and she still loved him. I smiled that day only forced for the camera, my heart aches and my wedding was totally ruined in my eyes. He didn’t act the happiest in the world either 🤷🏼‍♀️ our honeymoon was nothing but arguing and that’s it. We argue almost every day it seems and his favorite saying at that time was “you just married me for money, you think you can get alimony”

Things got somewhat better, 5 years later we start seeing a dr because starting a family wasn’t happening as easy as we thought it would be. We found out I have pcos and after while of no medication working we decided to go for

IVF

which costed us over $20,000 all together in the end but it worked. All of this effort and money and as soon as I get the positive call from my dr it has been nothing but negativity from my husband. Nothing good said, no excitement..I’m like wtf was the point? We had an argument over the phone the other day and he says to me “you got what you wanted, ever since day 1 you think you can treat me how you want because your pregnant and you just want to use me for child support” like literally what the hell? All I want to ask is why did he even ask me to marry him then accuse me of such bullshit...why spend thousands of dollars to have a child only to act this way like he doesn’t even want it and accuse me once again of wanting his money? I literally wish I could go back in time and just run, I regret everything..the marriage this pregnancy...everything. I’m a emotional wreck, depressed and he’s pulling his childish “ignoring game”

I’m ready to leave.