Long post, needed to vent to people who understand. I am just heartbroken. 💔

My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 2.5 years. Just finished my 8th round of medications (fermera/clomid combo). During the 13 day scan, kristy said oh wow this is strange. I just thought, your looking at my insides, what is weird? Well I don’t remember the actual name for it, “heart shaped uterus”. Well so I did research because my appointment with the RE, for a water ultrasound isn’t until June 18th. So during my TWW I have been stressed...

Today was suppose to be a relief, today I woke up, Went to the office for blood work. Then drove off to work. My brother calls me at 9:30a to give me the news that my Dad passed away. So I cry as I sit in the parking lot at work. Not sure how I can handle al of it but I did. Went inside the work place and worked a half day. Finally left to be with my family.

My dad lives in another state. As I drive to my brothers house I get the call... the medications didn’t work. I thought don’t answer it, but the anticipation of not knowing would have killed me. I wanted to surprise my husband for Father’s Day, I know we’re not suppose to get our hopes up. Instead I will be planning my dads services, and traveling.