It’s not cheating, right?

I’m my mind, porn isn’t cheating. When I watch I listen more to the moans and imagine my SO and I together, not with the guy.

However

I’ve gotten into audio porn, you know, listening to a guy role play fucking “me” or telling me how to play.

I don’t “imagine” anyone fucking me, but it’s so... relaxing. My boyfriend isn’t into dirty talk at all, I should mention he loves when I do it.

Last night during a 10 min video I came twice and very hard, sometimes don’t do. I want to be open about it and try to get my boyfriend to try something new, but I don’t know how. I also am considered if it can be cheating, as I don’t actually pretend I’m with someone else.

It’s also been 4 months since we have had sex. He goes on about his high sex drive and how I need to please him and I kinda get on the back burner, he just assumes that I get off as well and I don’t