I feel broken.

My SO has 4 children prior to our meeting. I have none, never actually saw myself having children with the men I was with therefore I’ve been on birth control for 8 years. Had it removed just about a year ago and we have had no trouble getting pregnant however I cannot seem to get out of the first trimester. This makes miscarriage number 3 in six months. 😣😔😭 I just want a healthy sticky bean, I want to not feel like a broken woman.