So my child’s father is always saying he doesn’t abuse me just because he “doesn’t beat my ass” is how he says it. I have been wanting to leave for about a year now. My child is currently 2. When I took leave for my pregnancy he told me to quit my job so he would be bringing in any money. A flashback to when we were arguing while I was pregnant I went to get away from him and he followed behind me and dragged me across the tile floor by my hair.(6 months pregnant). Being that I have nothing I can’t leave or at least I feel like I can’t. I’m trapped and alone have no one to talk to. I still currently with him because as I said I have nothing we have a car in our name and a bank account. I work now but part time and definitely not enough to just leave. I have nothing saved because he loves to spend it on weed and hanging out with his friends. He puts up such a good front in public people say I’m crazy to leave he’s a good man they say. He’s always saying I’m unappreciative because I don’t want to have sex with him or basically kiss his ass. He takes my car keys and my phone when arguing and I want to leave with my child. He holds me down by my arms and yells in my face. (I’m front of my child) accuses me of cheating everyday. When I say we’re not together he adamantly says we are but when I find some evidence of him cheating we’re not together. It was about 4 in the morning when a random number called his phone as he was arguing with me and I asked to we who it was since he’s always taking everything from me. He repeatedly says no and once I go to snatch the phone as he does me, he lifts me and throws me into the sharp edge of a shoebin and holds me there as I scream in agony. He then leaves to go hang out with his friend. I changed his password on Facebook because he’s always on it and I know it’s the same as me taking his phone kinda since he makes it so I can’t snatch his phone or take his keys. I sit in front of the bathroom door and he’s kicking the door threatening to shoot the door down(knowing I’m sitting in front of it) yelling and my back is against the door to not let him in so of course my back felt terrible legs shaking and this went on for hours. When I try to leave he sits in front of the door and takes my stuff. I don’t want anything to do with him so I ask to not be touched but he continues to touch me grabbing my vagina my breasts anything my ass. I’m so sick of arguing everyday in front of my kid. He threatened recently to take my child away from me through the court because I don’t make that much money and I am actively looking for a job. Although he does nothing for my child he threatens to take her away. I’m so sick of this crap and I feel stuck. This is not even the half of it. Every single day he walks around here like he’s happy with himself. He says if I ever get with anyone he will kill them. He tries to stop me from going out every now and then by not coming home or calling me at least 20 times and texting at least 30 when I do go out. He breaks stuff and then says I have to help him pay for it or he rips up money saying he doesn’t care about money. One time I was getting ready to leave with my child and he sat on the windshield and broke it. He’s constantly trying to make me feel bad because I want nothing to do with him. He says I should give him more chances and that I’m his babymomma I have to put up with it. He changes like a switch one minute he’s angry cursing me out calling me a bitch and then the next he’s crying saying he stays at his friends because he doesn’t want to be around us. I feel like shit everyday and depressed and alone. Im only 21 and this is what I get. I’m trying to be strong but I don’t know where to turn I’m just lost. Advice? Anything? Tell me I’m stupid I know tell me I’m a shitty person I know.