The other night, I was with my man (sorry graphic) and I was down on him.... he says “you want to put YOUR dick in me”..

And he’s said this before in one way or another. He said “my pussy”. Before

I don’t know if he’s just accidentally saying the wrong thing or what.

He does have learning disabilities and messes up his words.. but mixing up who’s dick and whos vagina while talking dirty Totally throws me off a little

On top of that he hardly ever finishes.

Which has been a struggle for both of us.

He wants me to play with his ass and I try cause I want him to finish but I have a very hard time getting into that.

I honestly just hate it and grosses me out.

Plus there was one particular time that I got on his phone to use google and there was “ transvestite”Porn left up on the browser.

Which I found odd.

He told me, was watching other porn and that was in there and was just curious to what it was cause it looked different. Or maybe he’s just into that but not gay and being kinky?

After all this I have a hard time being sexually attracted to him. Like there is no physically chemistry and can’t tell if that’s cause I mentally think he’s gay or what.

I feel bad for considering that he might be.

I don’t know, I’m confused.