Not sure what to do

So I’ve been talking to this guy. My friend told me he liked me and I liked him to. Everything was good and we got flirty but haven’t become a thing. I have panic attacks about things randomly and I had one yesterday and I sent him a message asking if he actually liked me. I also told him in the message that he doesn’t know me to well. He kinda replied with well let’s be friends with benefits and then date when we know each other more. I’m not about that and I told him that but I was in complete panic mode and was saying stuff I didn’t want him to know like how I have tried kill myself. After that he left me on read. I’m not sure what I’m suppose to do anymore...