I need my Glow ladies

Victoria • SAHM mom to three amazing kids 9 months, 2, 12 been married for 4 months but been with my husband 8 years the motto we live by is live your best life

I never thought that I would be put in this position before but here I am. My husband for physical last night no it's not the first time but it is the first time my 3 year old saw. I tried to comfort him and best as I could but what do you tell a 3 year old. I thought this morning need forget but no the first thing he tells me is mom daddy pushed you and hurt you. That's the most gut wrenching feeling I could ever have. I broke down into so many tears and I'm still crying. I'm hurt and I'm broken. I've got no money and no friends right now. No family no nothing I'm all alone in this. What's worse is that my 3 year old tells me its going to be ok mommy I love you. I've called shelters and there's nothing available. I feel so trapped and worthless. I'm the worst mom possible. How do I fix this? How do I heal? How do I help my son? I'm so hurt and heartbroken please any help would be great