Post D&C follow up

So I found out at 11 weeks my baby stopped developing at week 8. I had scheduled a d&c for the following week. The same day I found out I started bleeding alittle more and passing more clots. By Wednesday 6/5 I was in so much pain that I couldn’t move. Called the advice nurse and she said to take whatever pain killer and hung up. Well not even 5 minutes later my “water broke” and I started bleeding heavily. Called the advice nurse and she told me to go to the ER, so I did. They did a d&c there in the ER and sent me on my way. I’ve been okay both physically and mentally.. It’ll be 2 weeks tomorrow since my d&c and I have my follow up appointment today. Is it bad that I feel like I’m on a bad news streak and am expecting bad news? I’m still hurting emotionally.. it’s been so hard. This was my first pregnancy, I’m 21 and I just want to know why. But I know I’ll never know why.