I am very sad with my life. I’m 15 and I thought your childhood is supposed to be fun. My mom is always out of state, with her new boyfriend. My older sister and brother are so mean to me. They always talk down and belittle me. I still love them. My sister just graduated so she will be going to college soon. My brother has anger problems and he takes it out on us a lot. My father is not in my life anymore. He is very mean to me too. He tells me he hates me and calls my acne disgusting. I have a small group of friends but I feel like I am an outlier. I’m a funny/weird person and I love making people laugh. I believe I am friendly and nice. I want to be kind to everyone because I was a terrible person in the past. I was rude, judgmental, and I had no respect for anyone. I feel horrible about the way I treated and talked to people. This was during elementary and middle school. I’m in high school now. As I said before, I am very sad with my life. I don’t share my feelings with anyone. When I do, the person either thinks I’m doing it for attention, gets angry at me, or does not take it seriously. I have suicidal thoughts and I know it’s not good at all. I just feel like no one cares about my wellbeing. I’m always checking up on my friends and even people I see around school. I’m very lonely and I wish I had someone to talk to. Thank you if you read all of this. I appreciate it.