Going through the hardest time of my life.

I am writing this because maybe someone who has been through it has some words to help. I don’t have family. I have a couple friends who are married to amazing men so it is hard to relate.

I have been in a relationship for 5 years. Engaged, kids involved. We started fighting often. Our sex life became basically non existent. He is a hard worker, I was a stay at home mom.

After our last fight was when life flipped. He kicked me out. I left with the kids. I finally got a place and am starting to get on my feet. I can’t help but text him everyday. He told me he doesn’t love me but I still can’t help myself telling him how hurt and sad and heartbroken I am.

I only signed a lease for a half year because I have hopes he will change his mind miss me and want me back. He turned into someone I don’t even know this last bit of time. He tells me go take my meds. (He knows I take depression medicine) so he says this to piss me off .

I just feel so stupid! I miss him so much but he is like in his own “happy world” without me. He told me he does not love me. He told me it’s been about 18 months of not caring about me. But yet I still act like a puppy on the phone. Just love me!

I was abandoned as a young child so a lot of this is a trigger for me. Which I am aware of.

But my question is has anyone been through this and maybe their significant other realized they really did make a mistake.