For a while now I’ve been feeling like a girl and sometimes like a boy; and other times I feel like neither. Like I just, exist. I am a born female and I identify as a female. But sometimes I don’t feel like it.

I looked into it and found some terms that help me narrow things down. Those terms are: Gender fluid and Demigirl.

To my understanding, someone who is gender fluid feels as though they aren’t one gender or another long enough to be permanently referred to them by it. One day they may feel female, but another they could feel male, and another, they could feel neither or something else entirely.

And to my understanding, someone who is a demigirl feels like a girl sometimes, but other times she may not feel female. I believe the other feeling is predominantly male. But I’m not all too sure on either of my definitions of both.

They could both apply to me but then again, gender fluid seems to be a better fit. When I think about it, it doesn’t automatically pop into my head that I may be gender fluid. And I’ve never felt the need to be referred to using anything other than female pronouns. So even if I was either one I don’t think I would ever really have the need to announce it unless prompted since I feel comfortable with feminine pronouns. But then again, those feelings of feeling female, male, or neither don’t quite make the most sense; so I never gave it much thought.

I genuinely don’t know if I am one of what I stated above, if I’m just going through something else, or I’m not one of what I stated above. It’d be helpful if someone could help me as I don’t feel like asking a friend or family member. But it’s fine if someone doesn’t. I don’t really need a label or term to tell me what I am, it just helps put a face to the feelings I have.

(I apologize for anything that may be incorrect in this post, I only really began to look into it yesterday since the feelings really bugged and interested me)

Thanks-💚