My husband and I had our ab for poor prenatal diagnosis at 16 weeks.

At this point he would be 1 month old if everything had worked out the way we had wanted. Today 3 people I know announced their pregnancies to me at work. I faked a smile and said congratulations. And then I had to leave the room.

But I’m so jealous. I’m jealous it’s not me. I’m jealous that since we’ve had our ab, we’ve had 1 mc, and no successful pregnancy since then.

It’s just so hurtful to me. I know they didn’t do anything wrong, and they just want to share their happy news, but I just feel like I will never be there again. I feel like I’m not allowed to be hurt that they’re pregnant and I’m not, but it’s how I feel and I don’t know how to feel different. The only time I immediately feel happy for a couple is when I know they have suffered multiple losses. And yes I know that is very messed up, but it’s true.

I’ve brought this up in therapy before but, I guess I need to bring it up again next week.

Am I the only way that feels this way?