Hello I am a 21 year old agnostic woman who is looking to build a relationship with God. I might get hate for admitting I'm agnostic and wanting to find God now, but I don't believe there is absolutely nothing out there.. I do still pray from time to time but I feel like I want to form a relationship with God. Where should I start? I just feel like even if I wanted to start a relationship it's already ruined because I haven't lived a spiritual life. I just want to feel his love and his presence and be able to have faith in something again. I'm super depressed and anxious and I just need relief from it and i know people say God can help you with that. I'm also interested in going to church but I don't even know what type of church I would go to. I was raised non-denominational Christian. However i have also had an abortion 6 months ago and have sinned other ways so I feel like I would look like a hypocrite. Can anyone offer some advice? Thank you.