Long story short I always had body dysmorphia, I struggled to keep my weight at 125, this pregnancy I have gained close to 50 pounds (not quite sure why) anyways being pregnant in the summer has been a struggle when it comes to looking in the mirror and finding clothes I feel look okay on me, I certainly did not think I would get into a bathing suit, but I did and here it is.

I catch myself pulling the top over the bottom of my belly, I feel like everyone is starring at me as I sit at the ocean.