The evening of everyday is actual torture for me. It's the point when I feel like I'm actually losing my shit. I dont know if it's because im so exhausted or if my baby is just worse but I'm actually dying my husband is basically working constant 12 hour shifts at an extremely physically demanding job that this point. He worked 4 days off 2 days worked 4 days off one day worked 4 days. These shifts are also rotating. And I had a falling out with my parents recently so basically I get no help right now. No breaks. I also discovered I have PTSD from a birth injury. I'm honestly a terrible mother to my 5 year old right now because I'm irritable and impatient and dont have any time for her. I want to spend every extra second I have relaxing and it's not fair to her. I just feel like I'm falling apart. Idk. I just wanted to rant because it's the evening and I hate evenings right now.