So I am 15+4 with my first baby! We are so excited and ready for our little one. I've prayed for years to be a mom and it is finally here and I couldn't be happier.

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But I didn't expect or realize how much I feel already. I love this baby with my whole heart and couldn't imagine something happening. I'm so completely overwhelmed with being excited and overjoyed that I cannot wait to see and hold this baby that I've prayed for for years.

I didn't expect to feel so ugly and nasty all the time. When I first got pregnant I couldn't wait to start growing. Now my boobs went from a 38DD to a 40DDD. All the bathing suits I wear, I look like a porn star. Which yeah my husband doesn't mind, but I don't want others to see my side boob, under boob, and all boob. We're going swimming with his family and I just feel uncomfortable in my body. I am also rounding out and my stomach is getting hard and so I feel big and round and fat. I know it's because I'm pregnant, but still.

I'm hormonal and crying at every single thing. I feel like I'm worrying about everything and crying at everything. I'm tired all the time.

I guess I'm just wanting to know if anyone else felt this way or am I totally alone or crazy? If you have felt this way, how did you deal with these emotions? How did you stop with the negative and focus on the positives of pregnancy?