My abortion came down to my life, his life, or no ones. I chose to end his so my husband and I could try again.

But everyday I think about our son and how I wish he were here. I want him with us and I’m so sorry to him that he’s not.

But I wonder if there is ever another child in our future if I will still always think of him daily or if I will think of him less often as other things move forward in my life.