How to stop “doing too much” 🤦🏾‍♀️

Janelle

Before I start, lemme just go ahead and say I KNOW I’m doing too much and I’m pretty embarrassed about it, okay? 😂

ANYWAYS...I’m single and have been for a year now. I’m open and looking to date butttttttt literally have not had anyone decent pursue me or even approach me and that’s cool, not tripping. One day, I was at the gas station and was having problems with my gas that was delaying me from where I was supposed to be. Coming out of the gas station, I noticed that the guy who held the door open for me, was a guy who worked with me. I had only seen him one other time before that at work when he had stopped by the gym after his shift to come watch the kids play dodgeball (I’m a Camp Counselor at the YMCA). Once I got back to my car, I was standing around waiting on the gas and I noticed that once he came out of the gas station, he was making his way over to me. I was like whaaaaaa, grant it, his car was at the next pump over tho 😂 but the first thing he said was “Long day at work huh?” And then that’s when I knew for sure that he was the guy who came in the gym that day. He just inquired about my work day and then ended up telling me that he actually worked with me one summer during camp but we just never crossed paths or worked the same shift apparently. He was just really sweet and GENUINE. I’d never had a guy be that genuine towards me without tryna her my number before the end of the conversation. He didn’t even ask me my name, just about my day. I ended up asking him for his name tho and then we parted. I haven’t seen him a work really since then but I can not stop thinking about this man and I even dream about him. I keep praying telling God how he knows I can be OD about little things like this but how I didn’t want to and I just wanted to take it as a guy being nice to me one day and leave it at that and not get all carried away but I feel like I am anyways 😩 why can’t I just remember that moment and think “Oh he’s a nice boy!” Instead of “Oh he might be my husband” 🙄 cause if I tell myself THAT, ima be dreaming about him every NIGHT smh. I mean, this dude could have a whole girlfriend, ya know? What’s a pray that I can pray to ask God to not let me get so carried away. I did say just that (God, help me to not get so carried away) but should I be added something else? I just feel so embarrassed cause it’s been so long since a guy has just approached me & then he approaches me being dang near perfect 😒 God knows he can’t be doing stuff like this to ME cause I start doing too much 😂😂😂