Ugh! HELP!

Hey, guys! I just wanted to get on here and ask about something that’s bothering me. I posted this anonymously because I’m sort of embarrassed even though I know I shouldn’t be since it’s a human thing and I don’t want to go to my mom about it.

I’m an 18-year-old and I’ve been wanting to start masturbating for a while but every time I try to, I don’t feel any pleasure from it. When I watch porn, which I’ve been doing for about 5 years (I was like 14 when I started watching porn but I didn’t start touching myself until maybe age 16) I get wet and aroused and everything, but when I touch myself, I don’t feel any pleasure. It doesn’t feel as good as everyone says it does and it’s SUPER frustrating!

Does anybody else go through this or has anyone went through and finally figured out what was preventing it?

Let me know please because I’m starting to think something’s wrong with me. Btw, since I know I’ll probably get comments asking about it, I have tried to simulate my clit but even then I don’t feel anything.