Hey girls! I just thought I needed insight on this. I mean, I already know the answer but I need advice.

So, I’m currently 10 weeks pregnant. My baby daddy is 22 and I’m 24 (don’t know if our ages matter but I’ll throw it out there). He’s in the army and stationed in Missouri and I live in Minnesota. I’ll be 11 weeks this upcoming Tuesday. My baby daddy and I broke up two days ago. He said it was mainly because we argued so much. He also mentioned that he wants nothing to do with me but only the child and that we will never ever be together ever again. What he interprets as “arguing” is mainly me bringing up concerns about the things he’s doing, like how he would be out drinking every weekend with his friends or how he would rather focus on gaming than me.

We had plans on getting married since we found out i was pregnant. He’s mentioned before the pregnancy when he was deployed that when he gets home, we were going to get married. We bicker a lot due to his level of stress and my level of stress.

This pregnancy hasn’t been easy. During my 5th week of pregnancy, I started bleeding and I had to go meet with my doctor right away while I was at work. I went in and the doctor that works closely with my OB-GYN said that there was no fetal heartbeat and that my pregnancy is a potential threatened miscarriage due to the bleeding. They sent me home with a kit in case I started having clots. I also had a vagina ultrasound. The nurses and doctors didn’t tell me that vaginal bleeding was normal. So I went home that day and saw more bleeding and started balling my eyes out because I thought I was losing my baby that we worked so hard to make. I bled on and off for two weeks. It was really hard for me to go to work and focus without crying my eyes out.

I went in for another ultrasound at 7 weeks and they found a heartbeat BUT I had a subchorionic hemorrhage where the placenta implanted. AGAIN, my pregnancy was still under “threatened miscarriage.” They also found that I’m a person with potential PCOS due to the amounts of cysts they found on my ovaries. Every time I go into the doctors office, I get really nervous and anxious because I’m so afraid of hearing bad news about my pregnancy.

I’ve tried to make him understand that I have a lot going on in my pregnancy due to all the complications I’m having. Yet, he still chose to leave. Am I wrong for always expressing how I feel about his actions and always worrying about whether or not my pregnancy is going to be a healthy one? It’s so difficult right now. I feel very alone and haven’t felt like myself in a while and then all of this happens. I’m at a lost for words because I truly thought we were fine. Then our messages would just consist of me making conversation while he just sends emojis. I’m really trying my hardest here to hold myself together. Tell me if I’m wrong. I’m so confused and I’m alone in this pregnancy. I need insight.